CALISTHENICS MAY 1983
NEWCOMERS – PROFESSIONALS -- CONVEY UNDERSTANDING –AWAKENING EXERCISE –RELATE TO GOD – COMPUTER – GAP – YOU ARE AWARE – CHRIST IMPULSE IN THE WORLD –EVOLUTION FROM 1968-83 AS SYMBOL OF THE WORLD EVOLUTION –SOLAR SYSTEM EVOLUTION – SEX, JAZZ AND ROCK – LOVING GOD
Since the impact of Easter things change very fast. You might not be aware of what happened, but we are involved and we are aware of it, so we cannot operate as we have in the past.
One of the things we are going to ask for next year is that newcomers be trained for a full year before joining the service and calisthenics.
We have to face the situation in a practical way. We cannot bring newcomers into a group that is already trained, it's a drag on the existing group and it's too much for the newcomer. There is a tendency still to think that you can join in at any time because it's kind of easy work. No it isn't. The more you advance, the more demanding it becomes. For instance, most of you are somehow sensitive to what is going on, and if you bring someone new who is not sensitive, it pulls you down, whether you are aware of it or not. We have a work going on that works smoothly, adding someone who does not understand what is going on is like a grain of sand in the gears -- until that person is trained sufficiently. Newcomers have to be trained to work, to adjust their sensitiveness so that year after year they are able to sense more things.
….What is going on here has a kind of specific character and a newcomer has to get used to it. We named people to take care of Newcomers and instill in them, show them what is going on.
By newcomers I mean not only people who are new to the group but also those in the groups who are at a loss about how things work. They could join these groups too. They are training groups.
And there are requirements for those who would take care of groups. They have to be able to stand behind, to demonstrate, experientially, what they say. It's not easy. There are aspects you might not be aware of. It's not a matter of just training, these people have to be able to gather a certain note that deals with with what we do, which is related very directly with the Christ Impulse. Non-mediated .. Direct. Of course, this requires a kind of general training, psychologically speaking, but also specific abilities and specific orientation of all the faculties, and that includes a lot more than the person.
…You might remember that we spoke about being professional. I haven't heard anyone say: "I will". And for good reason, you have to awaken. For me professional means one who is able to know what we do, know what is going on, experientially, not mind-wise --assuming the position implied and acting from there -- that person can say: "I will". When you say "I will" in this instance, it's not to us that you say it, but to the higher authority for which we work. This is no small matter.
…You know every once in a while I hear there are a lot of participants who feel depressed, helpless, that they cannot do a thing so how can they go on, etc. On the other hand, I want you to realize that this group is very different from what it was, but it's not exactly on the personal level, and this is where you feel kind of helpless, and this is where some of you want me to step in and help. No, I won't. This is not how we work. I always say openly that what Pertains to your person you must handle. It is an instrument situation, which you learn to handle. I give you the necessary principles to handle it and direct it in a certain way and you must do it. All the training is meant to give you tools to handle that human situation. This will be the task of those who start to help others.
There are persons who are perfectly sure that to come and be in this room when I speak or when we have service is sufficient to change. No, it's not. It's not the purpose.
I propose that you use a different model for the personality. Instead of being the person trying to create a higher self, a God-like condition, from the person out, how about deciding that you (whatever that is) incarnated, chose a person, a personality, in order to bring that human condition from point A to point B. It's exactly what happens.
Before you incarnate, you are shown the principle of the life of the person you chose, and you sometimes have a choice of two or three, depending on where you stand. It's very different when you suddenly realize that you have chosen a person in a certain condition to do something very definite with it.
If you would do this, take this position with your mind, your feelings, your sensations, whatever consciousness you enjoy, working would be a lot easier. It's self-evident that you have to do something. There is a mastery to be observed.
So, those who wish to help and feel at least 75 percent qualified, can come together as a group, each choosing a subject, as much as possible from the book to have a kind of line of action, and work hard. Chose a field that is not too large, something you feel that you can do and train, train, train. Alone and with a group, because you have to be checked and double checked. And, of course, for this kind of group there is no strife whatsoever. There is mutual respect. You are linked to a greater work and you are here to do it.
You might not be aware of it, but when I say something I have immediate feedback from your minds. I speak a word and I know immediately if it is understood or not. Most of the time it is not. I'm very happy if one person picks it up. Now we come to the point where more than one picks it up, so the work is kind of easier for me, but this is not a teaching, it's an action going on, and the action goes ahead day by day. What was at one time a simple work now becomes a lot more drastically imperative in other ways that are new, and I look desperately for ways in which I can convey some understanding.
For instance, we use the word " livance " in a very definite way. It is all-encompassing. Livance cannot be equated to senses, emotions, or thoughts, which are not all-encompassing. Now I am always aware that this word in not understood. I can follow in your minds right now, either individually- or collectively, what you do with the word " livance ". You pick it up, turn it around, make it a concept, a belief that you understand. Now in this situation what can I do? I have to say it's not what I mean. So you feel being put down. Again, what can I say? If you want to play games, play games, but livance it something else.
I wish you would come to the point where instead of playing the game of being put down, you would receive what is said as applying to a situation, not to you. You have chosen a personality, it is a human situation. I speak with you, the real you, about that human situation. In this human situation, this and that doesn't work. There is no judgment of value. We simply try to make you face the situation instead of dreaming. The quicker you face it, the better it is.
We are here to help you.
Awakening Exercise
In my attempt to find ways of expressing, the other day I came upon one that hopefully will make you realize something closer to livance . The whole procedure involves watching the consciousness to find out how it works.
To simplify we'll talk about two stages:
The first stage is that twilight condition you experience when you first awaken in the morning. We call this the "first awakening".
Don't move. Don't open your eyes -- you are still practically in a dream-like condition. You can observe imagery, thoughts, and so on going on -- like movie clips. They change and change. Sometimes one lasts for three seconds, sometimes for a half second, and then something else comes, and so on. This you already know from experience.
Now, what I suggest you do is be very aware of what happens. Do not itemize (analyze) the pictures, but get the feeling of the situation, as a whole, and of you in that whole situation. This is the first stage. You only stay so long in this stage, after that you have to go on.
Now you get up, you awaken fully. This is the "second awakening". I want you to observe the huge difference between the first awakening and the second awakening (situation-wise not item-wise) and of you in these situations. Do not say: "the difference is in this or that aspect" etc. Simply experience the difference of world -- from one world into another. The second world is a lot bigger, a lot sharper, a lot more varied, and you are a lot sharper too.
Then you can go one step further. When you are in the first awakening, try to exert some control over the imagery going on. But watch out, if you do it too drastically you will go into the second awakening. You must really respect the first condition.
So, to continue, you, as identity in the first awakening, choose to stay with one of the pictures or movies going on -- something you like -- and you let the imagery continue. Perhaps you will succeed for three seconds, perhaps ten, but if you haven't come into the second awakening you will notice that before you realize it, other images have taken over. This means your ability to exert a direction is very poor.
Next you awaken fully, exert control over some aspect, and watch the difference. Again it's two worlds. The "you" that acts is different and the ability to be more steady, to exert some control for a length of time is highly different as well. Register this. Don't register items, register the whole situation.
Do this thoroughly.
You have to imprint the huge difference in impression between the first and the second awakenings so that it is there without any doubt, just plain obvious for whatever function: sensory, emotional ,and mental. It has to be very, very clear.
Now those who have a sense of something other than just the person, those who feel a spiritual side, can go a step further :You are in the first awakening and you are aware of that. You respect the 'first awakening, and, in that surrounding, you, as spiritual being, exert an action on the surrounding. This action is not done by an imaginary spiritual being, but something you know consciously.
Then you move into the second awakening and do the same. You will experience the sense of spiritual as being hugely different from the first awakening to the second.
Depending on how you do it, there are things you can do in the first awakening and also in the second awakening that can be described by exactly the same words but the situation is worlds apart. Then it might begin to dawn on you that when words are spoken you must be careful to listen to what world they belong to.
Let's say you choose a very, very fine, beautiful quality to live in the second awakening, a quality that is kind of obvious for you, meaning you can be aware of it in the first awakening too. Feel the surrounding of the first awakening with that fine quality. Then feel the surrounding with that same quality in the second awakening and watch the difference. It's enormously different. In every way: size, quality, precision , whatever.
Do this repeatedly until you don't need to do it any more. But do it, not to register mind-wise, but so that the experiential evidence is there.
The purpose of this kind of training is to help you understand what it is to face an evidence . An evidence is experiential, it's not an understanding. It's whole.
In the first awakening you have one type of world that you can describe with words. In the second it's completely different, but you can describe it with the same words. If this is clear, you can follow my words by your own experience already, but you need to do it experientially to set it into your person, completely, without a shadow of a doubt.
w Then you will be ready when we speak from and about a third awakening. If you have a big difference between the first and second awakening, the difference between the second and the third is still bigger.
You will begin to realize, a little, what livance is. You don't itemize that overall awareness, you don't try to grasp it with your mind, you live the fullness of that enormous difference. It's fantastic. Once you begin to realize, something happens to your mind; the solidity of your concepts is shaken when you see the kind of difference that can really happen.
In the first awakening you feel being yourself and you are at home, then suddenly you are completely different in the second awakening. You'll see how much you can trust the condition in the first awakening, and how different it is in the second one. Now what if there were a third one? You will realize that you are still not awake. It helps you in many ways.
If you have really experienced it, you will realize that the functioning of your mind in the second awakening is not adequate for the third awakening, because if you apply that same functioning to what happens in the first awakening, and you switch to the second awakening, the mind is not the same. The field of action is not the same. So what you too, for granted as being the way to do it is suddenly questioned. Then you look in the direction of a third awakening and you cannot do it with the processing mind. You can only do it experientially. When you decide to go from the first awakening to the second you just do it - You decide : "I'll awaken fully". Your mind might make the sentence but the decision is not the sentence, and you switch over to the second awakening. It is a full, complete, experiential situation. Now look for the same difference, that same kind of symbolic analogy for the third awakening -- experientially, not as a mind concept.
Do you have questions about this?
It seems to me to be a clue that can be very useful to you to find a way out of the usual mind picturing.
Let's take another practice you can do: Relate to God in the first awakening. Your experience probably shows that if the impulse is strong you might slip out of the first awakening instantly, before you know it, so you have to be careful when you practice to keep the first awakening.
One thing you can do is try to go from first awakening to second very slowly. One idea, for instance, would be not to move: open your eyes, acknowledge the part of the room you can see, then close your eyes and join the picturing again. Do this a few times. Maybe you can even move now a little, but beyond a little you slip into the second awakening.
But let's say you are now able to relate to God in the first awakening. okay , now awaken fully, completely. Preferably move, take a shower, have breakfast, whatever. Now, again, remember what you did in the first awakening and do the same, relate to God, fully awake. Now watch the difference in experience. It's a huge difference. It's the same wording, you relate to God in both cases, but it's a big difference.
So now you might begin to realize what it will be if there is something like a third awakening. Do you follow? It's just to give you an inkling . I say this because many of you try to work and work, but always in the same way. You don't realize that it's not the processing of the mind but the experiential side that is important. It's also for you to realize by training with the two awakenings that if you are used to working in a certain way, there certainly is another way. Maybe you ought to look for an awakening into another way, especially if you practice and nothing happens. Technically speaking, practice means really doing something. Now if you really do something, something is bound to happen.
If you pretend nothing is happening so you don't do anything, this means you are in the first awakening. You would be surprised how many people in the second awakening still perceive according to the first awakening.
It's also for you to realize that you constantly have traces of the first awakening in the second awakening. One of the main features of the first awakening is that kind of fantasy going on all the time, practically constant uncontrolled imagery. You will notice in the second awakening that imagery or random thoughts in the mind also go on constantly, it's simply that in the foreground you have an organized life proper to the second awakening. And the more organized that life really is, meaning you kind of master it, the less interference there will be from the first awakening.
Now you might come to a transition between second and third awakening, and you will notice a chronic situation: Let's say your position, as being, is according to the second awakening. This doesn't work !r ,. When you do this it means you haven't registered the kind of difference there is. This is why I say train with the first and second awakenings to have a very solid experience of the huge difference, so that you can realize to expect at least as much from the second to the third. There will be a lot more, you will be surprised, but, let us say simply "at least as much" for now.
As far as identity goes, in the first awakening you can say "that's me," and in the second awakening you can say "that's me" as well, but it's not the same. They are very different, and the power they exert is very, very different. Well, you know this, but register it so that you realize that a third awakening implies another world and also a completely different identity, so it's obvious that you cannot work at the level of the third awakening with an identity that belongs to the second.
And for those who are going to take care of other people, this has to be a solid experience. You will be amazed, and it won't be easy, because you will face people who relate to so-called spiritual development according to the first awakening, not even the second. So you will have to instill some practicality, some awakening to the realization that action needs to be taken and so on. Then there remains the step from the second to the third.
…You have that kind of silly situation in the service where you feel yourself changing, being different, in a surrounding that is different, and you don't need to do a thing about it. You respond, and that means it's active in you - otherwise you wouldn't respond.
Incidentally, this is one of the reasons why we can no longer take newcomers in the room. What is going on is going on too strongly now. In some cases it might not even be safe for newcomers -- depending on how their fantasy world works.
There is an action, a third awakening, going on to which you respond, meaning, as you surmised, you are in it, but you are not aware because your understanding of awareness is of the second awakening.
Which reminds me of something I wanted to say pertaining to awareness. It would help you a lot if you would begin to realize the principle of the processing machine called the computer. You feed signals into the computer, the machine processes the signals and comes up with an answer in terms of signal. The one using the computer is aware of the meaning. The meaning is not the signal, it's very different. Now personality has been developed and shows some features called consciousness, which, to simplify, contain one type of signal called sensory awareness. You understand the word signal with the senses. You sense it signal-wise, that's one kind of awareness. You have emotional awareness, you have mental awareness, these are signals, they are not true awareness. Real awareness is none of these. If you would watch closely how you function you would notice that before you think, for instance, there is an overall experiential something, or nothing, depending on how you look at it, from which thoughts are derived. In the functioning of the person this translates as signals which give the words and sound as you hear them now. The awareness speaking the sentences is not the words, it's not the mind either.
Please be aware of something: We have spoken of the gap and of the personality being developed for the sake of its development. So far the person (computer) has learned to work and process and is more or less functional. Now someone is going to use it. Someone comes across the gap to use that computer, an that someone is you.
Please realize that all the conscious functions in the personality belong to instrumentality. They are not the one using it. The one using it is aware. In the third awakening the identity is with what is behind. It's not a product of the senses. emotions , and thoughts, which constitute your awareness of ego, so the change is drastic. When we work from this we are not what you think (second awakening).
To prepare the way, and also to understand what the position of the Doer is in the hologram, you need to realize that in the third awakening processing is not useful. As far as consciousness is involved, you proceed from evidence to evidence, not from understanding to understanding. This is why I introduced the experiential aspect of the first and second awakening, so you can suddenly realize that you can live, you don't need to process. You learn to stay with evidence and suddenly you become sensitive to a world that could be completely different from the usual understanding.
Okay, now that you know about the first and second and possible third awakening, I have to draw your attention to events going on in the world.
You might begin to realize that the change going on in the world is a lot bigger than people think. Changes are processed according to the second awakening, but they happen according to the third, so there are dimensions missing.
I have already hinted several times that with the Christ Impulse you have a change in mankind, a new orientation. In the model given by Steiner, mankind has gone through three and one-half eternities, the last half on this earth. From what people understand, man is an entity that has grown out of the sea, through different stages, from the ape condition to become man. (Now from what I've heard lately, people challenge the ape proposition, but let's take it symbolically as the animal or nature side in man.) Then you have also the proposition in the Bible that "man was created in the image and likeness of God," this means the spirit aspect of man. The Christ Impulse brings a polarization and the spirit aspect becomes dominant.
There is one point you cannot check by yourself right now, but there are beings that go along the nature side and there are beings that go along the spirit side. Man happens to be a being going along the spirit side. This is one of the many aspects implied in the above quote from the Bible.
In Steiner's observation, through each eternity, mankind as we know it now, is the result of only the top third of the mankind of the time. The others lagged behind, meaning they are one eternity behind.
Sometime during an eternity an impulse is given and it creates a split. The Christ Impulse creates that split. You are not used to seeing, let us say, vastly, so you might not be aware of it, but I must say that I am keenly aware of the split having already started. If you sleep through one incarnation you can catch up in the next one, it's not yet critical, but it has started. Having started, it puts all of you, actually all mankind, in a kind of uneasy position. You have to make a choice.
I want you to look at the condition of mankind today -- you have everything from the worst to the best, it's your choice. You used to live lives in which you just had to go along, making life possibly a little better. In this life, and probably others following, you are confronted with choices. You have a lot of destructive influences, you have a lot of constructive influences, all mixed up together. It's for you to choose. And the choice is very simple, if you have practiced.
I have in mind, for instance, being able to discriminate between positive and negative polarity -- what links you to the spirit side, what links you to the nature side.
…. Darwin thought we came from the apes, some people now have the inkling there is another solution. The ape is actually derived from a primitive man that was left behind. But they are still looking for clues to that.
Incidentally, if you are able to take things symbolically, the animal kingdom is a former mankind. The vegetable kingdom is a former mankind, and the mineral kingdom is a former mankind too. Three different stages. In occult law it is said that the animal in the next eternity will be what man is today. Again, understood symbolically, "man" means a kind of intelligence able to handle a personality, instead of needing what they call a group spirit to lead everyone. So you have an individualized being, and this is what apparently constitutes mankind. It's one way of looking at things for people in the second awakening. But it does not mean that the mankind derived from the animals of today will have physical bodies as man does today or that they will have the same intelligence, not at all. It will be one eternity further along, and that means a very different surrounding. Everything will be different and very probably what is like mankind of today will be more intelligent. So we cannot compare, except symbolically. Symbolically it works.
You are surrounded by wastes of previous eternities (meaning what you have produced as a mankind). Now, you want to go with the top third to the next eternity. obviously you want that. But you have to prove it. Life is a choice and it has to be made, wanting is not sufficient.
Be very conscious of what draws you down and what brings you up. The time for fooling around is gone.
You can see millions of people happily destroying themselves in all possible ways. You can see the other side too. But do not think you can be lazy and just let yourself be pushed along. Before you know it you will lag behind and then you will need a big, big effort to catch up. As an example, when we started the groups in 1968 or 1969 we were pretty close to your own condition as far as personality goes. Now it's kind of hopelessly different. We did all the steps in front of you, but you had no eyes to see. Maybe once you start realizing you will remember and see retrospectively. Now, if we are hopelessly different, it means you have to hurry to catch up. This is, in a small way, exactly what happens with mankind.
At the starting point, which is just about now, people are kind of even, with a tendency to one side or the other. You can switch over as you want, easily. But pretty rapidly it will be less and less easy. And as far as mankind's evolution is concerned, in a 1,000 years the difference will be very big.
Now, I want to tell you something else that might help you tune to another way of seeing things.
The whole solar system follows a path in what is called the cosmos. That path presently enters a very powerful zone of influence, spiritually speaking, which brings along changes in the whole solar system. It is not simply a coincidence that most of the big names in the hierarchy have taken a new initiation, all the way up to the Planetary Logos and the Solar Logos. It's not just a matter of mankind, it's a matter of the whole solar system. And now suddenly you change levels. We are not dealing with small egos. It's a lot more serious than that. If you want to tune in to what comes from what I just spoke of, you loose completely the first and second awakenings. It's completely and totally different. And it happens right now.
But it depends on you. You have to make choices in everything in life. And remember, choices are first in the way you relate to things, secondary to the things.
As an example: Some people make sex a goal in life. Now please understand that I do not deny that sex is part of everyday life, it is, but I speak of the handling of it. Making sex a goal in life is directly opposite to the goal of fulfilling your reason to be here. If you have two goals in opposite directions, you shouldn't wonder why you don't move. You have lot's of people who enjoy sex without making it a goal in their life, this is a kind of balanced position, but to make sex a goal brings you down to the instinctive side. The instinctive side is along the line of negative polarity, and this is precisely what you cannot master. Mastery is the ability to use it at will, or not use it at all, still at will. If you make a goal of sex you strengthen it so powerfully that symbolically speaking spirit can no longer come down.
In the new age you have new centers opening. One of them implies the M region, meaning spirit comes down into that region. If, for instance, you make sex a goal you prevent that coming down. There is a choice to make.
This is a kind of subject that you understand fairly easily, but it pertains to the entire instinctive side, not just to sex. Jazz is a music that is related to sex. Rock is a music related to sex. You can kill plants with rock music -- it's definitely not harmless. A choice has to be made and there is no escape.
Now you might begin to realize why I asked you to practice decision-making. In some instances you have a very powerful ability to make decisions. Sometimes it's easy and sometimes it's not. If you are used to it, it's a lot easier.
But don't take it lightly, the coming into this zone of influence means that all your daydreaming about spirituality has to go. You cannot work with beliefs, at least not if you go toward the third awakening. In the first awakening you have a lot of beliefs, in the second you have a little bit less, and in the third you have no beliefs at all. You cannot speak or act in terms of belief. You face evidences and act accordingly.
So you begin to realize that what is going on requires some powerful action, and you also begin to realize why we suddenly say that we have to take measures.
So for the newcomers, they will have to work first, and I would say they even have to qualify. If they don't qualify after a year they can either quit or continue with the same training until it comes. But it also means that you cannot stay idle in this room just listening, there is too much at stake.
…….Of course you have desperate cases. For instance, when Sandra came the first time she had psychic abilities, negative polarity way down etc. and now she's kind of head of the Los Angeles group.
Participant : About 15 years ago you said of someone here that it was practically hopeless , and that person was the one who responded the most beautifully to one of the exercises you gave.
Martin: So you can see, even if it is desperate, there is still hope. If the person has courage the whole picture can change.
We spoke of psychic abilities. When a person works, that person is going to lose those psychic abilities. But behind the psychic abilities is a common denominator called sensitiveness. When the person is trained, that sensitiveness will come out again, but with positive polarity. The sensitiveness is not lost, it's simply the way of relating to it that changes.
... Take the top 30 percent as symbolic, because you have groups even now training to rescue as many as possible that don't make it. When there is a time of transition it covers a certain period of time. During that time period there might be a possibility of fishing out of hell some people -- there are some skilled fisherman. Now it's actually not hell, but well... social behavior can be hell sometimes. And actually it is projected that society will go through a kind of hell a few centuries from now. But again, this is a projection and as a projection it's always an open-ended proposition. There is always a possibility for something else. For instance the development of the mind has gone quicker than was expected in mankind. When things like this happen the outcome can be different. The purpose of quoting Steiner is simply to instill in you an awareness that life is a serious matter and you can't fool around.
Then, if you tune into that zone of influence into which the whole system is coming, you change instantly. It gives you a completely different perspective.
In the Bible there is a quote that says: "Behold I have come to make all things new". Of course it is accepted an a belief, it's not an evidence. You are used to seeing your persons as you did thousands of years ago and that's it. Now you come to the point where it's no longer true. So make a place for the third awakening, but realizing that it's not in the confinement of the earth like the second. In the third awakening all that is gone and you begin to realize why I use the symbol spaceship.
Now I would like to add a last aspect. For those who do not know how to work and for those who do, this should be the base from which you work.
Loving God
You shall love the Lord your God with your whole heart, with your whole soul, with your whole mind, with your whole might.
Those who can:
Look into your heart for that deep spontaneous love for whatever is defined by the word God -- not for the concept of God, but for ...... and you have no words.
But it is there very tangibly.
For those who do not feel that deep spontaneous love, I would suggest that you do it anyway.
And you do not start loving by telling yourself that you have to start loving God. Loving is a spontaneous action. You start loving by just starting to love -- because it is there already. No thought processing, no emotionality, just that deep, deep, real love.
Something else:
As you do it, you might believe that you start from heart. Be careful, this very often is plexus. Let it be pure heart. Later, if you are honest with yourself, and you really touch that which loves God in you, and you start from there, you will not be able to tell where it starts from. It is all over. The point is not where it is, the point is love -- total love. Forget about whether-it is with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your whatever ...
Love
Then you might realize that you are not the only one that loves. Your body loves too. That which in you loves God is not your ego, it is more genuine than that. It is not an image. And when you truly love, there is something in every cell in the body that loves God. Be aware of it and allow your body to love God.
Body has awareness, in its own way, which is not your way, but you can sense the impulse of love from the body -- so let it go.
You let it go, you direct it toward God -- whatever, wherever that might be. Symbolically speaking the eyes look in front, so it might be in front. In the beginning it's usually higher up because it has not come down completely into the awareness.
Do it fully, completely for as long as it stays genuine. In St. John of the Cross you have the way of the true mystic: no material goodies, no spiritual goodies.
God
That and that only ...
When you really love God you come to a point where the duality: you/God is gone. You honestly cannot tell which is which. This is why the mystics speak of the golden middle way: no material goodies -- no spiritual goodies, just
God
You are so full of God that God is wherever you go.
It is a very quick way to a third awakening. In the second awakening you are still based in what you call consciousness. And I am here to testify that there are ways of working in which you do not use consciousness -- you know what you are doing, but it is not consciousness. It is none of these functions. You can come to the point where you are so centered on God that you have no awareness whatsoever but still ...
It is not what is known as awareness -- be it the more concrete awareness or the more abstract awareness.
God is no-thing for the awareness
There is another point you must remember: there is no self- reflexiveness .
When you love there is that movement that gives and gives love. The body loves, whatever is here loves, and you love (even the small ego).
But be careful:
"Martin has said that you could get into the third awakening quickly if you love God".
You start loving because you are going to be rewarded by a third awakening, you don't care about God, you care about your third awakening. Catastrophe. We are speaking about loving.
So you start loving. You are in the position where you happily love with all your soul, and then you have the mind coming in with: "Let's see, what does it do to me?"
This is where discipline comes in. You say: "Shut up" and you love. or you forget the "shut up" and you love.
You will have many types of interferences :
Sensory -- you can have real --Feelings
Emotional -- you can be shaken
Mental -- asking: "What does it do to me?" and so on...
Every time, you stop short and...
Love
Real, total, complete love
It's a discipline. Do not say you love when you are looking for the changes that go on in you. You love because you love. Period.
And you don't give a name to God. You don't even give a coloration to your love of God -- it is total. All of it.
You do this repeatedly. Every day. When you do this, after a while you will begin to realize what I mean by working/ acting from another position, because the sense of what is you will change. But the purpose is not to love so that the sense of you changes, you love because it is your most natural movement and you belong there. And when love becomes so intense you forget about all your other movements -- then, if help is needed, you give it, with the same love.
Center on God. Love God. And that only. There is no goal. You don't love because... You love God wholly, completely, and you allow your body to follow too, according to its own awareness, not through your awareness. And when you have interference and you start looking for feedback on what it does in you, forget it and love again. Fully centered on God -- only that -- no purpose ... simply ...
Love